Vallanna

with closed eyes, i hear nothing, feels nothing. it's like im dead, but my body is still alive. i lay here in this bed, seeing my own body, torturet and destroyed. i dream of the water, while i stand deep under it, with closed eyes, i hear nothing. a heart is beating, blood flowing, brain working. the pain.... i opens my eyes, after months away, away from the world. the first thing i see, is the smile of my beloved one, i try to smile back, but cant move. im no angel, im no hero, i walk through the life, with no care for myself. how can i tell my love, that i love him, then i dont even love myself. i cant imagi

a soul broken beyond recognition trust broken and abused lost and full of sorrow full of self-hatred uncertainty forced to travel in the dark without light without hope existing only behind masks masks of indifference a mask that shows all but who and what the soul really is a mask you loathe but don't know how to be rid of to scared to take the chance again but no matter how scared you are your never alone some see through the mask some are willing to wait waiting for the right moment to help one day it all was to much to much of darkness i wanted to get away run away even so i streched my hands out willingly acceptin

I'm sitting here in the night By this alter the war is over and i feel so lost in time I kneel down kneel down to pray In the light of the moon i feel your present. The moment i feel your embrace the pain begins once again from my back i can not see them but i know they are there the wings. a smile is on my sadden face the smile of someone who has found the lost soul mate. you are my guardian angel always with me always hidden at times i feel alone not knowing if your there if you love me the way i love you. The distant memory of you when your not here makes me smile i know you'll soon be here again here by my side